Essai: “Why don’t I know what to look through”

From Instagram:

I’ve been making a few of these free improvisations a week, and I’ve noticed that in hearing the words I sing, I often make a political reading. It’s funny how we can connect any image to our underlying concerns.

I recycle the phrases that stick (“Why don’t I know what to look through?”) and react to new things in the magnified space of recording. When I play them back, what felt like 5 seconds of thinking is usually about .5—so I was actually able to resolve things better than I’d believed.

I’m definitely oriented toward the dark “cloud” around us, but thankfully my spirit also wants to talk to clarity.

Listen to the fifth essai, or attempt/draft/iteration, I’ve put up on SoundCloud here.

It’s starting to get more interesting to hear these compiled together, and there are shifts in my attention when I evaluate songs as communication—something I assume is implied by creating artwork, captioning, and making the experiment visible to others.